Monday, May 30, 2016

Peering Into the Heart

I had a heart catheter procedure done this week. What an amazing experience to be awake and see a living picture of the inside of one's own heart in real time. I am especially grateful to be breathing freely and to share my life with you here. Here is a poem I wrote the next morning while recovering. To The Beloved, who is within everything:

Heart Catheter
Whoosh, Whoosh, Whoosh

I peered into your mystery,
the flesh cave where you live.
Whoosh, whoosh, whoosh
is your whispering song.

Your current, your flood called my true name.

I am spun in your eyes.
I am the fluttering wings of your tears.
I am at home inside you inside me.

Maybe this is the new day, Beloved?
Maybe this is the first day?
Maybe this is the last?
All I want is to be with you.

Circuits of dream are
depositing layer upon layer
of life enriching memory
within the walls of the secret labyrinth,
where we walk together,
where we fly in the morning light,
where we sing as the winged and the free.
Whoosh, whoosh, whoosh.

What am I searching for?
Who do I see in the darkness of my chest?

I found the place where you live.
In a dreamy haze I saw you!
With feather and fluttering mouth,
your dark secret revealed,
your longing alive in me,
beyond sense and convention.
Your song a flood within me.

The portal of our longing is
finally opened to the wide world.

Fly within me, Beloved.
Take me into your secret vows.
Love me in this sunny place.
Love me in the darkest place.

I faint.
I fall back.
I spin at your midnight touch.
I am lost in the veins.
I am red and salty.
I am found in living breath.
I am loved in the death of someday.

I am one wing of two,
arcing through the grace
of blood and bone.
I am this until the portal is open forever.
Whoosh, whoosh, whoosh…
Then I am everything you are.


(c) Copyright Richard Sievers, Image and Words, May 2016.